so sweet.

Wah, this is so sweet. Grins. Be sure to watch it till the end. Smiles. Otters are such pretty creatures. God is so creative. Heh.

humbled again and again.

Time and time again i have been greatly humbled. When i think that i can do it and i've got things going for me, that's when God throws it at me and leaves me helpless and needing Him. It's certainly not easy being a Christian, in fact, more and more, i begin to see what it means by "deny yourself, take up the cross and follow me."

Today, as i met the youths in Crossroads and listened and observed some of the things that are happening around in their lives, i felt overwhelmed with the some of the things they were facing. I asked myself if i was effective and adequate in helping them- i don't know what to say or how to advise, neither do i see anyway where i can seem to meet their needs. And the Lord in His grace and mercy reminded me this: Rach, you are not God. And that simple truth hit me straight in my face. It was me again trying to do things, wanting to change circumstances, wishing i could be in control of situations. And when i went down on my knees in utter submission telling God that i am limited and i can't, who He is was being magnified. His infinity and magnificance became all i could see. And i know that God loves the kids in Crossroad unconditionally. My responsibility is really to point them to Him, to the one who is more than able to meet their needs, give them peace, joy and satisfaction and be their friend. So often, i am caught up in the "i don't seem to be doing enough", "is there something that is lacking in all my service?" but John Piper puts it so beautifully when he writes,

"The uniqueness at the heart of Christianity is the glory of God manifest in the freedom of grace. God is glorious because he does not need the nations to work for him. He is free to work for them. 'The Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give His life as a ransom for many' (Mark 10:45) Missions is not a recruitment project for God's labor force. it is a liberation project from the heavy burdens and the hard yokes of other gods. (Matt.11:28-30)"

- John Piper in Let the nations be glad (Bold emphasis mine)

This few lines struck me. Many times, our God is portrayed as a God who needs us to work for Him, slog for Him, give our energy and time for Him, be all tired out n burnt for Him and this description makes Him sound somewhat like a slave driver! I am certainly not condoning that we do not do anything for Christ and just sit back, slack and enjoy life. But the truth that i am placing across is that God has to be glorified in all that we do! and we need to be constantly aware that we can NEVER do enough for Him, what we need to do is to be satisfied in glorifying God.

Today, it is my prayer that i will point the youths to one who can give the eternal solution and remember that Christ is the author of their salvation, the provider of their needs and i am merely availing myself to be used by Him.

I dare not pray bold, aggressive prayers tonight, except ones that i will do what He wills and bare His cross with my life. Lord, i am nothing- You are everything. This song describes very aptly my heart cry today.

Who Am I

by Casting Crowns

Verse:

Who am I

That the Lord of all the earth

Would care to know my name

Would care to feel my hurt

Who am I

That the bright and morning star

Would choose to light the way

From my ever wondering heart

Bridge:

Not because of who I am

But because of what You've done

Not becasue of what I've done

But because of who You are

Chorus:

I am a flower quickly fading

Here today and gone tomorrow

A wave tossed in the ocean

A vapour in the wind

Still you, hear me when I'm calling

Lord you catch me when I'm falling

And you told me who I am

I am Yours

Verse:

Who I am

That the eyes that see my sin

Would look on me with love

And watch me rise again

Who am I

That the voice that calm the sea

Would call out through the rain

And calm the storm in me

Whom shall I fear?

Whom shall I fear

'Cause I am Yours

I am Yours

Psalm 8:3-5 (NLT) "When I look at the night sky and see the work of your fingers- the moon and the stars you have set in place- what are mortals that you should think of us, mere humans that you should care for us? For you made us only a little lower than God, and you crowned us with glory and honour."

red nose and rainbow wig.

I think that although i livened up the mood at today's filming with the weirdest and most impromptu comments, i talked a tad bit too much.

Sometimes people "look" stupid and say out-of-the-world things just so that others can be entertained. I was in that category of "people" today.

But i am glad the rest seemed like they had a good time. It's nice to see people still rolling with laughter after a long day's work. Smiles.

Maybe i should consider being a professional clown.

Just maybe.

OR... maybe being a clown is one of the million roles of a social worker. I always remember lecturers saying that social workers need to have a sense of humour.

AHA! This must be it. A social worker who wears the clown's red nose and puts on her rainbow coloured wig on different occasions.

There goes my wild imagination. Whoots!

Yes, you are absoutely right. Rach is tried and needs some rest. Or maybe i haven't had my dose of the day. Grins.

La de dum de doo...

real issues, real pain.

God is reminding me to genuinely love and care for others.

It's not easy, but i'm willing to give it all i've got...

A girl from Crossroads told me today that she cried during tuition because she was so frustrated about not being able to understand a maths sum. Sometimes we might see the issues they go through as seemingly trival- in fact, petty. Things like stress in school, bgr issues, at the age of 12, you'd think, "goodness, grow up...", quarrels with their friends, hate towards teachers, their parents and basically the world (haha)... We all look back at our lives and goodness, how much we have grown. Thankfully we had good parents, sunday school teachers, maybe role models or if you walked through it yourself, somehow (by the grace of God) you still turned out fine. But maybe these kids don't. Perhaps they haven't got that environment to learn and be nurtured. And as trival as their issues might sound, they are very real to them. You couldn't dismiss it because the pain they feel, the struggle they go through is just as intense as one you might be going through right now. And that, for them, is overwhelming.

I have learnt, overtime, what it means to be genuinely concerned about their lives, to be with them as they grapple with teenage issues- things i never even went through or heard of. As i begin to understand their worlds, i start to see how purposefully allowed our paths to cross. And unworthy as i might feel, He desires to use me (and you) to minister His love, His grace, His compassion. It awes me and blows my mind to see how i am part of this plan.

Yes, though it is definitely not easy walking through life with these kids (some of them really get it tough), i really desire to understand their worlds, and bring them to the knowledge of this wonderful saviour that i have. And i believe with all my heart that out of these kids will bloom a generation that will transform the community. I cannot even imagine how amazing that would be... Seeing them bring the gospel back home, to school and to the void decks. It's gonna be radical.

All these, i look forward to, and in Christ only i will boast of its accomplishment.

joy bubbling from within.

As i was spending time with God this morning, i discovered 2 passages that embodies what the Holy Spirit has been teaching me these past few days,

"Let the words of Christ, in all their richness, live in your hearts and make you wise. Use his words to teach and counsel each other. Sing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs to God with thankful hearts. And whatever you do our say, let it be a representative of the Lord Jesus, all the while giving thanks through him to God the Father." - Colossians 3:16-17 (NLT)

"Work hard and cheerfully at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people. Remember that the Lord will give you an inheritance as your reward, and the Master you are serving is Christ." - Colossians 3:23-24 (NLT)

Indeed. As i fulfill my responsibilities of student, i want to do it cheerfully, all the while giving thanks. It is not easy when sometimes you find yourself stuck with a group project that you know shouldn't be hand up in this state, when you are so tired and haven't eaten dinner yet you know you have to finish things up first because you don't want to procrastinate, when you still have an individual paper to do but the compilation of the group projects (yes, with an 's') are staring at your face, when you could choose to complain and whine and nobody will blame you for it, when it is so easy to say, "forget it...", when you could have-- a million other things. But in the midst of all these, i find something so strange happening, i find joy bubbling from within. I find my heart in delight, and my spirit in perfect peace. I find a gratitude that His grace is so sufficient for me and all i have to do is to conform to His will.

How amazing it is to be constantly in His presence! We serve a really awesome God... :)

gloomy no more.

I was walking along the corridor of after class today and sighing within at the amount of work i have to complete... Until i saw this girl looking super gloomy, gouchy and tired. And immediately, i told myself- the joy of the Lord is my strength! and strated breaking out in a song in my head and smiling to myself.

If we are called to be light of the world and salt of the earth, how can we be just like every other student in campus going through school as if tomorrow will never come? Yes, it is the time of the semester that we all dread, the deadlines and assignments but, in that split second, it was an excellent reminder to rejoice in Lord, ALWAYS, and again i say, REJOICE!

Alright, i'm gonna get my work done before i head home for dinner. Lord grant me efficiency and wisdom for this task, i want to do it with an attitude that praises You. :)

i'm back and my heart is singing.

As I sit in the library in an attempt to complete my assignment there are many thoughts running through my head. This has been a semester full of the grace of God. Full of humbling experiences and yielding to the will of God. I have never found myself being so intrigued with who He is then this semester. And gosh, as 3 months have passed, I feel so much gratitude bursting forth from within. There were times I was burdened, felt weak, asked many questions, was disappointed, but yet- I really see how God turns all things for the good of those who love Him. I certainly can’t say I love Him enough, because I will never love Him enough and I owe Him everything.

I have been learning very tough lessons that have brought me back to the basics of what Christianity means but I would rather go through each one of these lessons then wish they never happened. Because these processes have moulded me. They have strengthened my faith, built my stamina for a longer race ahead. I cannot emphasize how much the Lord has had His favour showered over me in every aspect of my life and I am ashamed that many times I do not even recognize it as His grace and mercy.

And as I attempt to start explaining the areas in my life He has been challenging me with, I don’t know where to start or update. Because there simply has been too many! And besides… well, I guess the procrastination to blog about them has made me a little at a lost as to where to start. Grins. However, I am ready to start sharing consistently again how the Lord has been glorified in my life. I am reminded of how I wanted to use this space to share of His goodness and spur others on in their Christian walk. And yes, truly I would like to use this space to do that.

Moving from the virtual to the real world, the atmosphere in the library is so surreal. I really miss the NUS arts canteen where I can sit by the tables at the side and just enjoy the breeze, being by myself. It’s amazing how I am such contradiction sometimes. I really love being around people (I can’t imagine how it would be like when I am 40 and alone. Haha.) but yet I also enjoy being alone a lot. Just the serenity, spending time thinking and being with the Lord is so so precious. Perhaps the more I am around people, the more I desire to be alone too. Shrugs, humans are rather complex. Whatever it is (haha), I guess I better hit the notes again and finish up this point of the assignment before heading home for home-cooked food and the 9pm show. Haha. Don’t mock me, I hardly get to follow any drama series nowadays.

My heart is singing, “Jesus You are so good…” Truly a privilege to be called His child. Smiles.

more to life.

When your nose gets blocked and runny at the same time and you wake up in the morning feeling groggy, you realise that its the-time-of-the-semester again.

When you have slept 8 hours the night before and then another 6 hours in the afternoon but still feel tired and lethargic, you realise that your body is not letting you off this time.

When you feel that you can't rest anymore becasue you have to do work for tomorrow's tutorial, you realise that the school has either overworked you or you have been procrastinating. (i prefer to believe its the former.)

When you say to yourself, "i am not sick." when you actually are, you are in denial.

When you are drinking cold honey and you feel it going down your hot throat, you realise that you haven't been drinking enough water.

When you find yourself taking delight in little cute things on the display of a toy shop, you know that there are things in life that help you feel better when you are feeling drowsy.

When you start having silly dreams and sharing them with your friend over msn and laughing about it, gosh, you realise how deprived you are.

When you finally admit you should just smile and thank God for the day, you realise there is so much more to life than what you think. :)

Christ liveth in me.

"I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me." - Galatians 2:20 (emphasis mine)

I have been pondering and meditating on this verse for a while. We use this verse too flippantly sometimes i feel. I wonder what this verse really means to you?

purpose driven by passion.

Loving people.

As i sat through a counselling lecture and absorbed all that dr sim was teaching us, it was a suddenly realization of how much people matter to God. Its not something new, but it just struck me so hard. As i saw the techniques, the skills, the strategies he taught and practiced, i marvelled at the God who was the master of all these. i marvelled at what it meant to love. To show positive self-regard, to empathize, to be genuine. And i realized once again, how hard it is to love. But it also spurred me on to desire after that love that Christ displayed. I'm certain that the skills He had far exceeded the lecturers and supervisors that i grew to admire and respect. And this made me think, Jesus was really the best people-person and counsellor one could find.

And as i pondered about this, i began being curious about people's lives, to think about people who are hurting, who need a listening ear, who desire for someone to show unconditional, non-judgemental love, and i asked God to grant me a compassion that will drive me to action. I have recently discovered the joy about discovering about people's lives, to be genuinely concerned. And to embrace doing that. And i pray that as i grow this year, it will be a time where i will discover so much of what it is to build relationships. I am constantly reminded that this is really not a new thought as i type but it has just become so radically true for me! And a renewed passion that i believe that the Lord has placed in my heart.

Just this week i was asking myself (as i always do to keep myself in check) why i was doing what i was doing and asking the Lord to check my motivations. And today, in His graciousness, He reminded me that it was because of people. Simply to minister into their lives. And i feel so privileged that i am partnering in this journey. I look at the ministries that i am placed in this year and i am certain that building relationships is where the Lord wants me to grow this year. I am pursuing it with all my heart, and being very open to what the Lord is teaching me through all of this.

It makes so much more sense when i have a reason and a purpose to what i am doing. The apparent 'work' seems so much easier and enjoyable. Purpose driven by passion makes all the difference.

"Jesus went through all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, preaching the good news of the kingdom and healing every disease and sickness. When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd. Then he said to his disciples, "The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field."" - Matthew 9:35-38

Lord, i ask for a compassionate heart. A heart for people because i know you had and still have that heart.

a desiderative heart.

I have been learning painfully but joyfully what it means to be a Christian. And even as i yield my heart to the Lord's, i am beginning to discover areas in my life that need cleaning up. Not exactly exciting to know but i am willingly to do it. Why? Because i am not satisfied with status quo and mediocrity. Because i want to have a desiderative heart. Simply, it is a heart that desires.

desire
noun
1. the feeling that accompanies an unsatisfied state

WordNet - Cite This Source

And that describes my heart's cry. Dissatisfaction of the state that i am in. It's hard to explain it here, and i won't, but pray for me- That as i seek His face, He will grant me a hunger and thirst like never before.

"12Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." - Philippians 3:12-14

Lord, i don't want to stay the same.
From the inside out, Lord my soul cries out.

but only one thing is needed.

I have come to a point in my life where thankfully i am aware of certain signals and signs. This morning, as i was talking to God, the "slow down" sign blinked again. I thought to myself, in comparision to last semester, gosh, i have already slowed down tons. Are You sure Lord? How lofty was that! To ask God if He is sure... And God humbled and brought me once again to this passage in the Bible of Mary and Martha,

"As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!"
"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." - Luke 10:38-42

And I stopped. I stopped to listen to what the Lord had to say. You know, there are many things in life that NEED to be done. But what is necessary? I have resolved to do the necessary. And today i made a commitment to do the things that i need to do. Was it wrong for Martha to prepare and be hospitable? Certainly not! In fact, it was only right since Martha was the one who invited Jesus. The issue is not about the things done, but the better things that ought to be done.

I have decided to slow down on some things and speed up on others.

Lord, help me to focus- on the things that are needed.

true fans.

My parents make excellent soccer fans.
Gosh, you should have seen them.
I am really amused.
Laughs.

saying yes and no.

Another successful sabbath. smiles.

I have been attempting to take rests on Sundays and resolutely decided not to even head down to church but to spend time with God alone. (i go down on saturdays in case you think i have backslided, haha. and on sundays only when i have a need to) Well, what do i do then? Instead of hanging out with friends after service, i spend time at home catching up on some reading, talking to my parents and just relaxing- doing things at a slow pace. I have realised that i need to take time off to keep myself going for the year, at least the next half of the year. There are ALWAYS things to do, projects to busy myself with, people to meet but i concluded, after my the last crazy semester, that i really need to take regular breaks. Well, i dont succeed every week, but at least i try and my attempts have proven not too bad ones.

I have also been learning to say 'no' to some things. And goodness, i never thought it would be that hard. But i learn- to do the things that i have to and let go of other things. I haven't been all that good with that, feeling guilty for rejecting certain things and kicking myself for agreeing on others. I struggle between saying yes- because i can and thinking of long term implications of that 'yes'. I never used to look forward so much, but we all learn don't we? And this year, i have been learning what it means to go through processes. So yeah, i really thank God for these important lessons, better learn it now than later.

Well, there are some things that i have been saying 'yes' to and YES indeed! I am pleased to be part of Crossroad 47 and even more pleased to be counted in for this ministry. God has been teaching me valuable lessons as i work with different ones in the ministry and as i serve Him in ways that i have not before. Exploring unknown territories, making conversations never made before, taking risks- but one thing i have really learnt through this is truly: humility. i have to say alot of times that "i really don't know." I don't know what the inner worlds of the youths are like, i don't know how to help them, i don't even know what our relationship means to them, i don't even know if what we dream about is possible- i must say that i start from scratch. But one thing i know: and that is God is faithful and he uses weak things to make His glory known. I know that He has been seeing me through and showing me things that i have never seen before. I know that He has granted me favour in building relationships. I know that He has given me a great pastor who directs, envisions and to serve together with. I know that He WILL see me through. And that is enough. The assurance that God is going to make things perfect (His definition) in His time is overwhelming.

Therefore, i say 'yes' to trusting Him.

my brother.

This was taken on the 23rd of January, and i just wanna say that i love my brother! i think he is so handsome lah. Wah, cannot take it. haha. (dave, i bet your ego big big now.... laughs.) But anyway, i wanted to say that we have grown closer over the years and i believe that he has so much the Lord is gonna use him for. I cannot thank God enough for the gifts and talents He has bestowed upon him, and the immense pride i have for him. He is one of a kind.

And bro, like i always say, you have been destined for great things, use your youth for Him!Love you! :)

what's the difference?

Question #1: What makes a christian any different from a non-christian?

Question #2: What does the verse "By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another." (John 13:35) mean?

These two questions amongst others popped up while i was talking to Norman one night and i still have not fully comprehended the answers to them. There are people just as passionate about lives as us. Social workers who give their all forsaking wealth, time, career advancements, and i have seen that they through give their all to meet the needs of the people. (i am ashamed sometimes as i look at some of their lives.) They love one another too don't they? They display brotherly love too right? They give sacrifically as well. Yes, they don't have Christ, but well, their lives seem rather abundant and full to me. So how can one tell really?

To date, i have come to a few conclusions. One. The main difference is the hope that we have, that we know that at the end of the day, we will see Christ face to face and enjoy eternity with Him- to know that what we do has eternal value. Two. We experience true satisfaction, different from the satisfaction that they gain through meet the needs of people and seeing them succeed in life, different from a satisfaction of seeing a family reunited, but we have a satisfaction that surpasses all these. How do i measure? Really- i have no answers, it is something indescribable. Three. The love that we perceive cannot only be measured in the outward fashion and actions. Loving one another is more than merely serving and meeting needs of others, it encompasses more than that. It goes beyond the superficial. There is something about this love that HAS to be different. Simply because God made us different- Children of God as meant to shine. I am pretty determined to discover and seek out what this difference is.

Perhaps you would like to join me on this journey. I don't want to live a mediocre christian life, i desire to be radical for Christ. And that difference then has to be seen, or does it not?
Well, i'll share with you any insights that i gain.

transformation.

"I did not call you to perform great miracles like Elisha, I called you for the miracle of transformation- one life at a time. The transformation that starts with investing in that one life, then two, then three and before you know it, the miracle has already happened."

How unworthy i am for this cost. Lord, help me be the person you called me to be.

Trust His Heart.

Trust His Heart
Words and Music by Eddie Carswell & Babbie Mason

All things work for our good
Though sometimes we don't see how they could
Struggles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes blind us to the truth
Our Father knows what's best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim and you just can't see Him
Remember you're never alone

Chorus:
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His heart

He sees the master plan
He holds our future in His hand
So don't live as those who have no hope
All our hope is found in Him
We see the present clearly
But He sees the first and the last
And like a tapestry
He's weaving you and me
To someday be just like Him

He alone is faithful and true
He alone knows what is best for you

To all those who are doubting, to those who are going through situations where you can seem to understand, this song is specially for you. It has touched my heart, the very core of humanity and hopefully it will minister to yours. God is faithful, will you trust His heart? I am taking Your hand Lord. Smiles.

time, complexities and me.

"Einstein said that the only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once. In this regard, Einstein said that time was basically what a clock reads; the clock can be any action or change, like the movement of the sun." - Wikipedia.org

"Time hasn't stopped for any troubles, heartaches, or any other malfunctions of this world, so please don't tell me it will stop for you." - C.S. Lewis

Time is a measurement of the past, present and future. And time certainly waits for no one. I never really thought of this until yesterday evening when i caught a glimpse of Mr. Sun setting at the reservior opposite my place. As i was returning home on board the bus, i saw the bright orange sky and i told myself that i had to go and catch the sunset. Upon saying that, i told God, "Hold it for me, i'm almost reaching!" I was eager to rush across the road and up the steps to the waterfront. But i was slowed down by many puddles of water due to the downpour earlier, plus having to make a detour because of the muddy grass as well as the heavy traffic during the peak hour. In the midst of trying to catch the sunset, which was actually only less than 100m worth of a walk, i realised how easy it was to miss the sunset. Within minutes, the sun was almost down and the moon was in the sky. However, I still managed to catch the orange sky, marvel at the Lord's creation and in this process learnt a few lessons that i wish to share with all of you.

1. Time certainly waits for no men. In a blink of an eye what is done cannot be undone. And i began to pray that my life will be lived with no regrets. That every minute that i have will be God centered and lived for Him. "So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God." (1 Cor 10:31) And that is what i pray my life will count for, that it will never be a life wasted.
2. God is a sovereign and marvellous God. He could have held the sunset for me, made the sun set a bit slower so that i could enjoy it. But He obviously didn't. Imagine if he did! Do you know that the earth's processes are extremely fragile? Change certain processes, slow down certain movements and you get chaos happening! Was reading up on the sun and it is really fasinating, truly amazing.
3. Linked to the last point, God is really a God of complexities. It is already amazing enough how the sun works, how the sunset occurs, why it even does and how time is derived from it but think about this for a moment: This is not the only process that happens in the universe. God has to synthesize many other processes to allow earth to function at such a state that we might live in it. THAT, my friends, really blows my mind. He managed to piece it all together just so that we might be able to have life. And this is what it means when we call God omnipotent.

And do you know that that is how God works in your life too? Experiences you have had, people that you interacted with, places that you go or went to, successes you enjoyed and even your failures- All of this, He pieces them together to form a masterpiece of YOUR life. It is like a patchwork piece, where by themselves, the patches are pretty and nice- they are individual pieces of art even by themselves. When put together, they form a picture, a piece of work that is complete, that is a masterpiece. And so it is for each of our lives, the patches could be significant and individual experiences, encounters or events in and of themselves but when put together with the rest, they form a complete picture of God's perfect plan for your life.

Knowing this, i see each encounter that i have as not a means to an end, but part of a beautiful picture of my life that God is creating. I learn to see things beyond its immediacy and i gain a perspective that what happens now will have eternal impact. I learn to enjoy the process instead of look at the results, to accept failures as part of a growth process, and to recognize that He truly has my future in mind when He brings me through ANY and EVERY experience. He weaves all that i go through and never lets any experience go to waste, only to prepare and use them for what is ahead. And through this, i began to understand a little of what Pastor David Lim always preaches, to do things "in light of His coming again".

This revolutionalizes the way i serve as well. I see my ministries and service not just to achieve results or reach a certain target. But i see my service as a process to build my relationship with Christ, to grow in character, to learn His heartbeat- and that would also mean doing what He wants me to do. As Sis Ervina shared with me that day, "God is more concerned about our relationship with Him than our service. (or the things that we do)" And how true is this! I must learn to stop focusing on the achievement and start learning to focus on the relationship with my saviour and Lord, because to be with Him has to be my greatest joy and desire!

I am awed truly by how magnificant our God is and humbled that He would choose to take delight in my small and insignificant life. How amazing. :)

"When i consider your heavens, the work of your hands, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him? You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned him with glory and honour. You made him ruler over the works of your hands; you put everything under his feet: all flocks and heards, and the beasts of the field, the birds of the air, and the fish of the sea, all the that swim that paths of the seas. O LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth!"- Psalm 8:3-9

together with you.

"5 ... 4 ... 3 ... 2 ... 1 ... Happy New Year!"
-To God be the Glory in the background-
"Rach, put 2006 behind- your failures and disappointments and move forward."
"Okay, God, i'm letting go, i have to."
"This year is gonna be a year of tremendous growth. Will you trust in me?"
"Trust... Help me Lord, when i can't believe."
"Let's conquer 2007 together shall we? i can't wait..."

wow. what grace. 2007, i'm taking Your hand Lord.