walking the dirt paths.

As i prepare my mind, spirit and body to leave for Nepal on the 28th of May, there are mixed feelings within me. One part of me is all ready to conquer the world, step out in faith and set foot on the land. While well, the other part of me is apprehensive and fearing the element of unknown. Thank God at this point of time the former is stronger than the latter. I know that i will never be prepared enough of adequate enough for the work that God wants to do in and through my life while i am there a short 2.5 months. But one thing i know for sure- His grace is sufficient for me and His strength is made perfect in my weakness. And because of that, i may look foolish in the eyes of men to be doing something like that, but i believe that His power will be demonstrated in this weak vessel of clay. Thus, i take delight in the challenges that i may face there- the dread of having to preach, (yes, the very thing i run away from when asked to do in Singapore.) going there not fully prepared with resources or equipped with the skills needed for ministry, having to adapt to the culture, people and food only to find myself returning after i have settled in. Believing that in all of this it is really a process of moulding and the Lord doing a work in my life.

I can almost picture myself and the kids, running around, singing songs and just having fun- showering all the love i can upon them. Talking to the youths, hanging out (not 'chilling out' coz its gonna be so darn hot there. hehe.) and sharing life with them. Right now, the best i can do is to imagine all these things, but in 12 days, i'll be there and i won't need the imagination anymore- it'll all be reality. Smiles.

So even in these few days as i get excited about all the things that i have to do and worried about the things i can't do, i am reminded that in all of this the Lord wants me to do His will. And how will i know what His will is for this trip? I really got to pray. I really have to hear what the Lord desires for me in this trip, not what i want to accomplish or what the team desires to see, but what God wants for each of our lives. And thus, at the 12-day mark, i covet all your prayers that i will have the discipline to be more prayerful and learn to hear from the Lord. That i will not be caught up in the doing that i forget what this is actually about- Deepening my relationship with God so that i will be satisfied in Him and which results in Him being supremely glorified. :)

to walk down the dirt paths/sleep in wooden houses/travel along bumpy roads/hold the hands of kids with dried-up-mucus-faces/see them smile at the simplest things/being contented with all that the Lord gives them/praising Him for life.

That's really all that matters. :)